Tomorrow my husband and I and our son, Holden go to court to finalize the adoption we began nearly three years ago. Tomorrow our son becomes a US citizen.
It is a day we have been waiting on for a very long time.
I hope you enjoy this post. It is filled with giddy, raw, full love.
I'm not sure where I was or what I was doing nearly three years ago tonight.
But, I am sure I was daydreaming about my future baby.
I am sure I was longing for he or she to be in my arms. Picturing myself with a child pressed against my chest, as I caressed wispy locks of hair out of sleepy little eyes.
This dream came true.
Just tonight, I held a baby in my arms. I rocked him, and brushed the hair out of his eyes just before bed.
I pressed him against my chest, and breathed in his sweet little boy smell. I watched his eyes open and close, open and close. I just wondered what his little busy mind must be thinking.
And since I couldn't be sure, I told him what was on mine.
I told him tomorrow is the day. A day for big and grand things to happen.
I told him tomorrow, it all comes together. Three years in the making.
I told him that tomorrow is HIS day. He adoption becomes FINAL.
And, I kissed his plump, juicy lips. Over and over and over again.
And, like I always do, I told him I loved him. But, this time I added:
"I love Holden. Forever and ever and ever."
He giggled and giggled. I repeated the phrase a few more times.
I told him good night and started to walk out the door.
Just as I stepped out of the doorway he said...
"I...Holden...love...Omma, Appa, ever, forever ever. Goodnight, Omma."
And, that folks, says it all.