Rock the Adoption for Baby Hubbard less than 2 weeks away ...

All the details are finalized and we are only 12 days away from a night we promise will be fun. Admission is only $10 and between 7 and 8 p.m. there will be complimentary food served on a first come, first served basis.

We have two bands playing Thursday, Nov. 10, at Cosmic Charlie's in Lexington. The first is Sarah's dad and his band, Sons of the Frigidaires, at 8 p.m. (doors open at 7 p.m.). During their set, there will be members of several other native bands of Lexington sitting in to do some of their old songs, including members of Exile, Swing Street, The Bats and The Johnson Brothers.

Then, Adam Zopfi's band, The Wonder Years, will cap the night off around 10 p.m.. If you love the 80s and 90s, come see this band!! They'll play until at least 11.

We appreciate all these musicians donating their time and talent to our cause. They're all great friends and among the most talented musicians in Lexington. Food has also been donated by Billy's Bar-B-Q. And if you are interested we have event T-shirts, thanks to Matt Browning and Surge Promotions, on sale for $20.

So, come have dinner with us and hang out! It will be a memory we can share with our future son or daughter that will last its lifetime.

Dreaming so...

Ive been one big ball of emotions and nerves for the past two or three days.

Travis and I were told we should expect your referral any day now. Wow.

Could it be? A picture of you, our baby? Is it this close to being real?

So hard to imagine. Yet, as real as the air around me.

I got nervous the other night thinking of all the ways my life will change when you come along. No more mornings of peace and quiet. No more laying on the couch with just my own thoughts on a Saturday afternoon. No more time to just hang with my travis and love each other.

then my worries got worse ...

Will Travis still love me the way he has for 10-plus years? Will my parents and his parents ever want to hear about our successes again? Or will our lives just evaporate into the cool night air? A life gone and replaced with a cute, chubby toddler who won the hearts of those we love?

I worried and worried. Will I teach you all the things you need to know? Will you love me right away? Will I bond with you? Will we LIKE each other???  Will I be a good mother???
My girlfriends say "Oh, those feelings are so normal!" "Everyone worries!"
But I still couldn't calm down.
Finally...ARE WE MAKING THE RIGHT CHOICE?
And the answer? We just have to go with our hearts on this one. Everything you do the first time is new and stingy...and beautiful and hard...and challenging and refreshing.
What I hope for and pray for and ask for and dream for is that you and I will just click. That our hearts, minds and bodies will just melt into each other. And, it will feel like you've been a part of me forever. I want to know I'll be your biggest fan.

I know this might be wishful thinking, but I have to be wishful. The fear of an adoption working out is the biggest fear I've ever known. It is so scary.
I never stop thinking about it, but there are days I have to give my mind a rest. I have to think only of good things...of places in the heart that are made only for love.

Of places where little fingers grasp mine and little cheeks rest on my chest. Of places where I watch my husband become an even better man as he cares for a tiny human being with a love he's never known. of places where our family meets the chance to love a child who didn't come from our bloodline, but from love none the less.
Of places where I will struggle as your mother, but linger with happiness in our successes together.

Of places where our life shifts, sways and bends, but never breaks. I'm dreaming of these places with you.